Bambie

Forever a teenage girl

Today is my last day being nineteen. I knew this day would eventually come, but it always felt so far away. Of course, it used to really be a far-away thing, until it wasn’t. I swear, just yesterday it was my thirteenth birthday, and I was entering a new, dramatic, and fulfilling stage of my life. How can it have gone by so quickly? Being a teenage girl is such a beautiful and terrorizing thing to live through. There is truly nothing else in the world like it; no one understands the mind of a teenage girl better than another teenage girl. It’s a community filled with love and drama that means nothing and everything, unanimously. My point is, it’s an important part of my life that is officially coming to a close. I’m not sure at all how to part with it, I guess that’s why I started this blog in the first place. The tagline “Forever a teenage girl ” I mean, c’mon, I know it’s cringy, but I relate to it so much!

The teenage version of myself is always going to exist in me one way or another, and I have grown to love her very much. Mind you, she has not always been the easiest person to deal with. My teenage self is full of love, regardless of living through hardship. She’s dramatic and funny and romanticizes every aspect of her life to make things more tolerable. The height of emotions you feel as a teen girl and the endless pit of songs, films, and books written about your existence is wonderful and something I am going to dearly miss. This is not to say that I am not excited for this new chapter of my life; in fact, I am very excited for my twenties and look forward to seeing what they entail for me. But I do think I will always look back on these years fondly, on this version of myself that was growing and changing every day. I will continue to carry her with me everywhere I go, and I will continue to feed into her spark.