Bambie

Forever a teenage girl

what to do when you miss someone?

I often struggle with this a lot, missing people or things that I don’t have in my life anymore, whether this be because of a falling out, the passage of time, or death. I can think about our memories and look at old photographs, but that never satisfies me. Sometimes, if it’s an option, I think about reaching out, saying hi and asking how they’ve been, but I rarely do because I know that’s not wise and that we don’t talk anymore for a reason. I think what bugs me about this the most is that I don’t have any control over it. What I mean is, it’s hard to accept that something is over, that someone is gone and never coming back. I get nostalgic, and I want to live in the good moments forever, but because this is real life, those moments always pass, and times always get hard. It’s too bad that good things always come to an end.

I’ve been trying to work on this more lately, trying to wrap my head around the fact that change is ok and people don’t need to be permanent in our lives for what you experienced with them to mean anything. Of course, though, it is much easier said than done, and although I know the reality of it all, dealing with the feelings is hard.

This wasn’t a post I was planning on making, but a very important someone in my life isn’t too well, and we will most likely be saying goodbye to him. My cat of 11 years is sick, and he just might be the only living creature to know everything about me. It’s silly telling your cat all about your life and drama, but he was always there for me when I needed him. I barely remember my life without him. And although this post is not only about pet loss, but the loss of any kind of relationship, this is going to be one of the hardest things I go through. I’m just not sure what to do. I know that I will never not miss him, never not wish he was still here with me; what I don’t know is how I will continue without him. There is no doubt I will lose a part of myself with him, but I also know he will be ok wherever he goes and that having him in my life will have been beyond worth any pain I feel for the rest of my life without him.

I do hope no one else is in the process of losing their childhood pet and best friend, but if you are, you are not alone, and things will get better. Celebrate the time you had with one another, and together, we can figure it all out.

My beautiful baby boy, Bender. I love you with all my heart ❤